Cold Turkey? Cut Back? To be or not to be? Those are the Questions.

Alrighty! In my quest for a hot bod...I mean to be healthy....I have decided to give up cokes (cokes = soda, pop, etc). Now my question to you is this. Do I go cold turkey or start by cutting back until I give them up entirely?

I've tried cold turkey before and after about 3 days, 100 headaches, and blindness (Okay, that's an exaggeration. I only had about 50 headaches) I end up going crazy and drank a 12 pk in less than an hour.

I think I'm going to go the cutting back route. Right now, I drink about 3 cokes a day. That's if I'm at home or out and about. That's my estimation which means it's more like 5 or 6. So! If I cut down what is the magic number to start with? 5 a week? 3 a week? One a day?

Another question? When do I cut back again? After 2 weeks? One month?

ARG!! Too many questions. This is why I fail! I over think things! Weightloss shouldn't be this hard!

So that's why I need you. What are your suggestions? Tell me about your experiences. I need help!!

Now, where's that Dr. Pepper?

Let's Give it Another Go!

I honestly forgot that I had this blog. I started it to help my lose weight. Has that happened?

What do you think?

My last post was in August and...

Well, there is no "and."

Still at the same weight.

Still wearing the same clothes.

Still depressed if I let myself think about it.

I actually came here today to delete this blog. Then I saw that it had been visited over 300 times!!! What? I am in shock. Are people actually reading this?

So, I'm going to give it another go. I've decided that I will not focus on weight. Sure, I'll post about it, but I'll post about other things too. I have a family blog that is private. This one will not be private. It's open to the world. I will not be using my real name, or anyone's real name.

If you know me, great! Just don't post my name in a comment, but please leave a comment.

Now, I must go back and edit some post and delete some comments. Don't be offended if I delete a comment you made. It's only because my real name is in it.

From now on, you can call me.....

LoserGirl!

(image: me standing with in the super hero pose).

Here We Go Again!

This roller coaster of weight is never ending! It seems to hover around 188-190 lbs. Right now I am down again so woo-hoo for that. But, I am just not excited about it. I think I am resigning myself to just being fat. I went clothes shopping today and ofcourse came home depressed. I mean, who I am kidding? I can't put my big toe in a size 14 right now. Yet to me, that looked to be about the right size. I must be delusional. Try a size 18. That's right, 18! This can not be!

And whoever at Old Navy thought you should hang a size 2 by a size 18 needs to shot! That's all I'm saying!!

To Depressed for a Title

190.4

That's all I'm sayin'.

Down a Teeny Tiny Bit

It's only 1/2 lb., but I will gladly take it. In the past three days I've only had one carbonated beverage. We went to ThunderFest last night and ate out before we watched the fireworks. I did order a Coke, but (and here's where I switched it up, folks) I did not accept the refill the waitress brought. I meant to ask her not to bring me any refills, but I forgot. So when she did bring it, I asked if she could bring me water instead. I did it nicely and the waitress was fine with it (you just never know how people are going to react) and it's not like I said, "Take that away!".

So to recap: no carbonated beverages in three days, said no to refills at Rafferty's, and down 1/2 lb.!!

And the Ranting Begins Again

Rant #1:
Why do I let a number get to me? I am ecstatic when that number on the scale goes down. It makes my day. It doesn't matter if it goes down by 2 tenths of a lb or 2 whole lbs. It went down and that is great.
Sadly, the same mood swing happens in the reverse if the number goes up. It absolutely ruins my day! I am mad, moody, and unpleasant to be around if that number doesn't goes down. I usually end up turning to food to make me feel better. Does it? Nope!
What happens if the number stays the same, you ask? Nothing. Nada. Zero. Zilch. I'm relieved that it didn't go up, but I'm not discouraged because it stayed the same.
I really need to get over this obsession with the number on my scale. I struggle with it daily.

Rant #2: Why can't I remember anything? Numerous times I've been driving down the road and think, "That'll be something I should blog about." Then when I get in front of my computer, I can't remember what I was going to blog about.

OR!

Even worse, I can remember bits and pieces, but can't get it to come out right so I get frustrated and just don't blog.

Take today for example, I was driving through TBC and read a church sign that said something about children following your actions, not your advice (HEY! I JUST REMEMBERED IT! To Be Continued in another post.) I came up with this whole thing about my eating habits and setting a good example for The Boy. When I sat down to blog about it, I couldn't remember what I was wanting to blog about. (But, as you can see, I just remembered so now I'm off to write another post!!).

A Wise Man Once Said....

...Children follow your actions not your advice.

I saw this on a church sign in TBC today and thought how true it is. My weight has been on my mind a lot lately. I have started reading The Abs Diet and have actually learned a lot from it. When I have tried to diet before (and I say tried because I've never really gotten serious about it) I've just dieted by watching what I eat or following the WW plan. Well, this diet targets the most deadly fat on your body, the fat around your abs. I've never really learned what fats are bad and what fats are good for you. Sure, everyone knows fat on your body is harmful, but I've never took the time to find out why. This book explains it and better yet, is an easy read.

So, I've started getting more serious about this diet and have been thinking more about body fat, eating habits, and so on. When I saw this sign, my thoughts immediately turned to The Boy and how I really haven't been setting a good example pertaining to eating healthy. It's especially evident with cokes. If I want a coke at home, I have to practically hide to drink it. If not, he's asking for some and I don't want him to have it. I tell him no. Is that fair? He's too young to understand why he can't it (and why Mommy shouldn't) drink coke.

So I have to set a better example for my son. Not only in eating, but exercise as well. Well, truthfully in everything.

I think I'm going to make up some signs and post them in my kitchen and other places to remind me that The Boy is watching.

The Number on the Scales Went Down!!!

I am so excited to see that number get smaller especially since last week it went up a little. This week I lost 2 lbs! So my total weightloss is 1 lb. It's a start. How weird that a number can make me so happy (That comment will be the topic of my next rant, but I don't feel like ranting right now because I feel too happy!!).

R.I.P Daily Menu

I have decided to not post my daily eats on here. I don't like it. If I find a good recipe, I will share it, but I just don't enjoy writing about what I have eaten.

I will step on the scales tomorrow morning so here's to hoping I'm down at least 2 tenths of a pound. My scale measures my weight that precisely. That can be a good thing as long as you are losing weight. Not so exciting when the number is going up.

Clothes That Fit!!!

I was cleaning on the basement the other day going through boxes finding yard sale stuff. I came upon this big Rubbermaid tote that had all kinds of clothes in it that I had forgotten about: dresses, pants, shirts, a whole bunch of stuff! As I was going through it all, memories of wearing the clothes came back to me and I was enjoying my time down memory lane. These clothes had been boxed up for along time and I had honestly forgotten they were down there.

Well, I'm needing some clothes that fit so I decided to try them on. Who knows? Amazingly they still fit me! I had a whole new wardrobe. No more having to wear the same pair of pants. I now had more than two shirts to wear!

You would think that I would be super excited, right? Wouldn't you be excited if you had found some clothes you had forgotten about? Wouldn't you be excited that you didn't need to spend money just so you had more than 4 outfits to rotate?

Me too!

Well, I would have been if these clothes didn't happen to my maternity clothes!

What Do You Want to Read About?

I'm not sure who is reading this, but I'm going to leave it to you all what I post about. Do you want me to continue posting my eating habits for the day or would you rather read the rants? Personally, I think the Daily Menu makes for a boring read, but hey, that's me. Or you want both: A Daily Menu and A Daily Rant?

Or...

Do you really care? I know Lisa reads this and Brooke is a follower so I'm assuming you are reading, Brooke. Anyone else out there in blogland? Leave me a comment. Let me know you exist.

Oh! And I down 1/2 lb! Yay, ME!

What Is Wrong With Me?!?!?

I am like a defiant little child. Here I have started a blog about weightloss and I have yet to really start dieting. I just get on here to complain and moan about dieting. Sure, I can make the excuse that The Boy has been sick, my AC is out, and it's just too hard!!

Wah, Wah, Wah.

I am tired of making excuses and tired of being fat. Lisa has started blogging about her diet (And to answer your question, Lisa, I started this blog after I saw you blogging about your diet.) and she posts what she eats each day and the excercise she has done. Maybe I should start doing that. When I was doing WW, I had more success when I actually journaled. Yep, that's what I'm going to do. Blog about my food.

Helpful for me, probably boring for you!! ;)

Today's 2nd Rant: Aches and Pains

I am so tired of hurting all over! Especially my hips and back. I know it's all because of this weight and since I am finally doing something about it, I know it's going to get better.

However, until then, I will just have to rant about it.

I read in some magazine (Or was it on the internet?) that for every 1 lb you lose, you take 4 lbs of weight off your knees. If only it was my knees that were hurting I would be feeling better with every pound I lost.

What a minute?!?! Did I just wish that my knees were hurting? Gosh, I need a Dr. Pepper. A Dr. Pepper for me is like a bandaid for a little kid. It fixes everything!

Today's Rant: Cheetos

I did pretty good today except for the Cheetos. What kind of hold do these things have on me? They taste so good that I can't say no to them. I am convinced that the people at the Cheetos factory put nicotine or possibly heroin in those things. That's my only excuse as to why I can't quit eating them.

First of Many.....

This is how this is going to work. I am not going to post what I eat, how many points I've used (not doing WW this time around), or my goals or aspirations. This is my venting place. This is where I rant and rave because I wanted that bag of chips (my weakness) and that candy bar (not really a weakness unless I start dieting....what's up with that?!?!?) It could get ugly! Well, probably not compared to some things I read out there, but in my head, it could get ugly.

I will post my weight (187) and anything else I feel like talking about.